morning conversations.

I'm very tired of constantly feeling like this.

Why people stray, I can very much understand that. Hearts go astray because there isn't any more connection. For crying out loud, there isn't any more emotional connection. Everytime someone wants to discuss something close to the heart, a war breaks out, harsh words exchanged, no one backs off. Both parties get hurt. Its very tiring to go through the motion again and again, I'm very tired.
I'm trying... I'm trying,

but I'm only human.
and I hate who we are now.

this is falling apart.
I am...we are...
and I can't take this anymore.

reflections.

Love isnt just greeting cards and sunset and flowers thats easy, thats not real.

Its about doing the things that you don't want to do for the person you love. Its about setting up priorities for the person you love. Its about doing the stuff that makes you mad, the stuff you do without being asked, its about having a friend, a team mate who's got your back in life. 

Love, something that should come naturally, but seems like theres more to learn from this.  

Selfish

I watched the sun rise with a broken heart.

I thought I knew who you were, but tonight I realized that I don't. We were a team, if your team mate doesnt feel okay with a decision, then respect that decision. If you havent realized, Your decisions also affects your partner. Here I am typing this whilst anxiously waiting to hear that you're okay...there you are throwing all sense of responsibility away. Your friend told me everything and my heart just sank. I don't know if I can take anymore of this in future. I want to laugh about it, I want to say how silly this is, but the fact is that my heart and trust is broken. Your night of fun was a living nightmare of hell for me. Talk about trust, I tried but it had to end up like this. 

I'm appalled. 

You told me not to worry, you reassured me. Now look what happened. Your reassurance means zero. Nilch. Nuthin. 

I watched the sun rise with a broken heart. 

When Im angry at you, I should think about the nice things you have done for me.
Like how you peel potatoes and mash them up for me
and how you encourage me when I am down
and how you make me laugh with your funny antics
and when you buy me my favourite things
and drive me home in the middle of the night
and pick me up from work
and pay for most of our date nights

When you're angry at me, can I suggest you do the same?
You're my best friend and also my lover.
We fight like lovers do, but I need my best friend in you back.

argh i feel so freakin lost. 

xx

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