Long post

Hello, I wonder who even reads my blog at all since its always fluctuating between happy-cray2, to depressed-lovesick. But thats just life isnt it, its filled with ups and downs and ups and downs and ups and ups and ups and downs.

k, you get it.

Anyway, this year's school term for me started out really badly. Like/really/badly. I didn't have any motivation whatsoever to do my work at all, things just went downhill. And looking back, I'm really glad how I forced myself to pull up my socks, to cast anything emotional and of the heart aside for now and just FOCUS on doing what I know I can do.

So then came recess week, when I was practically in school almost everyday till late...rushing and chasing the last bus home and all. And then came formative feedback week, when we'll get back all our grades, its sort of like an exam? I honestly asked myself whether I did my best, yes i think I did...but it wasn't the best of situations where I could have done even better. YKNOW.

I was thinking if I didnt get such a bad head start, then I could have gotten better grades and all? ;(

But alls done, and alls well.

God was really with me all the time, even though I have to admit that these few days I've been really busy and didn't do much bible reading or praying (except the once a week bible study :/ )

I mean, its really pretty amazing because ok BRACE YOURSELF FOR A LONG STORY HERE:

We had to do a critical analysis presentation on edward said's orientalism, and honestly that is the most dry and boring piece of text I have ever read in my life. Worst than the literature text I had to go through in JC. srsly balls. And as the weeks dawned by, other groups have already finished their slides, but my group was still...in the process of understanding the text. Well, because other groups chose different texts to analyse, hence there was this period of time when I doubted myself and was like "no, i think this edward said thing is too hard, we should change our article to something else". So I told my dad about it. (Yes, I talk to my parents about stuff like that) I was honestly really stressed, but we prayed about it on sunday that God will help me do understand and to help my group to get past this presentation.

And do prayers work?

My group didn't just 'get past' the presentation, we ACED it man. For the first time in my entire lasalle life, did I ever get a 78 for this module. AMAZING OR NOT. We started out clueless and then our morale dropped and to the highest in class.

True story bro.

I did pretty okay for the rest of my subjects as well...I think in this case, I know that God has been with me all these while, I wouldnt have been able to have done it on my own. And I thank God for my friends as well, especially Tina who has been accompanying me to do work in school all the time and making me laugh at all the silly but very lovable antics she has.

I'm starting to let loose, and to like, be myself around people...to really live...and not be so uptight all the time yknow. Hahaha, I find it amusing how Tina said that I should be more like that, because to other people who don't know me well they think I'm "dark and mysterious". HAHAHHAHA. I'M NOT.

HOW CAN A DARK AND MYSTERIOUS PERSON BE SO GOOD AT DRAW SOMETHING?

Hahahhaha.

But anyway, enough talkingzzz. I'M TIRED.

During 3D class when we were playing with this rubber tubing to see what we could make out of it. Tina made this hippie band thing for her turban. haha.

And I made this peacock wire thingy out of yarn and thread.
Some drawings before I sleep...

aaaannndddd, I dyed my tips turquoise.

It kinda faded already, but still it was nice while it lasted.

ok now, I have to re-write my 2.5k words essay.

fml.

BE GOOD, PEOPLE.

xoxoxox