Soma

So you know,  I've been feeling the lowest of my lowest. And I think I've finally had enough. I'm going to climb my way up, even if that means I don't reach the peak on time, but at least I'm enjoying the process of picking myself up from the fall.

I'm happy, generally, I think?
I want more of this happiness,

I wish sometimes we could consume happiness. In a sense, like taking weed or sth and getting instant gratification and happiness. Its like...brave new world's soma. I need some soma.